The Words of the Bickford Family |
On Nov 30th 2010 at 1 am my heart went into a-fib I didn't know what it was, I couldn't sleep my heart was pounding and chest was tight couldn't catch my breath. I had an appointment the next morning at Togus (veterans hospital in Augusta, Maine) and they were coming to pick me up in a D. A. V. van and give me a ride home so I waited til morning by the time they picked me up and got me there, I couldn't talk I had to write on paper, chest tight-heart 170 bpm they rushed me in ER.
Nothing worked no meds nothing they thought my heart would tire before they could save me. last ditch effort they brought me upstairs for ultra sound I could see my heart valve working so hard. I thought of my life and all I hadn't done and watched how hard it was working and said I'm so sorry I didn't treat you better because you love God and True Parents. In that very instant it went back to normal! I apologized to my heart and it was better. 18 hours at 170 bpm and doctors couldn't do anything I say I'm sorry and poof back to normal amazing.
I am so so sorry for your hearts. You never know when it's your turn to go to spirit world, it could come at any time. I had a brother in the early church, named Joe. What a great brother! He was chosen for MFT. While in New York city in the subway, it became very congested and Joe was accidentally pushed onto the 3rd rail from what I was told. You will always be dear to Heavenly Fathers heart so don't worry. I haven't fulfilled anything for Heaven and True Parents accept paying indemnity my whole life, and for that I'm eternally grateful. It's just that I really wanted to bring a couple busloads of people to hear Divine Principle. Everything I wanted to accomplish for True Parents I've never broken through. I don't even have any spiritual children. If I go to spirit world tonight, I will continue to love and serve True Parents and My Heavenly Father forever and ever, so don't be frightened.
Everything will be okay My loving sisters and brothers- with love-your eternal brother Kenny