St. Augustine's Confessions from the Spiritual World
by Young Soon Kim
St. Augustine's Confessions from the Spiritual World [Part 2]
Channeled by Young Soon Kim (The Reporter)
(2) St. Augustine's Place in the Spiritual World
Although I was living in God's tremendous love and light, many times I failed to fully carry out God's wishes because I did not clearly understand them. So continuing my prayer in many dimensions, I made all kinds of efforts to keep the standard of always saying "Yes" to God immediately.
As this effort continued to some extent, I came to realize little by little that God is a being who stays very near to me. God helped me become mature in many ways. He sometimes appeared in a brilliant and colorful light and sometimes in a whirlwind of light. Sometimes He appeared as an evening light coming from far away and waited until I welcomed Him by calling, "God."
In fact, God is love itself. When I did not realize God's presence, that light just stayed there without motion, and when I realized that God was present, then it disappeared instantly. I realized that God is always with me only after this was repeated countless times. Afterwards, one day I prayed with tears of gratitude, saying, "God, thank you. Why do You love me so much? Why do You give me just love, when I am so dull?" Then, God embraced my whole body like warm spring sunshine and told me, "I have been with you from a long time ago, and yet you have been just you. Now that you have realized My will, go ahead and fulfill your mission. Pray to find out what your mission is.'' And then He left.
I was almost leaping with gratitude and joy. I prayed continuously in order to find my mission, saying, "God please help me. Give me the wisdom to discover my mission." But God did not directly tell me about my mission. When I prayed, I felt one thing common to every prayer: unless I totally emptied my own self before God, I could not realize God's will and teaching. I experienced that if I prayed after deeply reflecting on the statement, "You are you, so pray that you become Me," some insight would immediately dawn upon me. From this experience, I came to understand the following facts: God is clearly alive, and the living God appears to us as light. This light is not easily available to human senses, but if we unify our minds and bodies and sincerely desire and pray to be near God, He embraces us as many different forms of light. And I must make this known, and I have finally realized that this is my mission.
From that time on, I have conveyed the God of my experience in many images to many people. Now when God comes near me, I experience a kind of intense trembling. I have received from God the mission to make this known to many.
God is love. He appears to us as light. And God always stays with me. All people must discover and feel this God.
April 25, 2000
3. God as Discovered by St. Augustine
(1) An Experience of God
When I was living on earth, I was very curious about God, but I was only able to form a vague idea of God, because we human beings cannot see or feel God. But any human being must think about God at least once in his life. Could there be anyone who has not wished to see God at least once or has not thought that God is helping us at least in some vague way? Although we cannot touch or see God, we cannot escape even for a minute from the thought of the existence of God. This is what we are like.
I, Augustine, also had many questions about God, and yet saw no way to find their answers. On the other hand, it is also true that we do not have a firm logical ground to deny His existence. Who is God? I would like to write about God as I have found Him in as much detail as possible.
In the spiritual world, we cannot indicate periods as we do on earth, for instance from when to when, and how many years and months. But in my case, earthly people will be able to count my time in the spiritual world from the time of my departure. As I mentioned earlier from the time I entered the spiritual world until now, I have had a desire to record God's will, God's profound truth, the history of God's providence, the relationship between God and human beings, and so forth.
I found God to be the unique being who has existed from the beginning of the universe. What expressions should I use to thoroughly satisfy your curiosity? In a nutshell, God is literally the honored being of oneness (based on the Korean word for God, hana-nim). He is an absolute and unique being, of whom there can never be a second. Also, He is immensely large, fully present on the entire earth, omnipresent, and omnipotent. As a whole, however, God can never be captured in human thoughts or concepts; hence, no language that expresses something about God can be entirely accurate. It is thus impossible for me to describe the God of my experience as a whole and in every detail; even if it were somehow possible, you would not have the conceptual categories with which to grasp what is presented to you.
Part Two St. Augustine
But at least I would like to provide a few examples showing God as I have experienced Him. One day, during prayer, I had a desire to see God. I prayed continuously, wondering, "What would God look like?" Then, suddenly, thunder and lightning struck from all directions, an atmosphere of terror attacked me, and I started trembling with vehement fear, asking God, "God, what is going on?" Then all of a sudden, the thunder and lightning disappeared, and I saw a light shining like a jewel and warm like the shimmering haze hovering over a meadow in spring. I wanted to touch that light because it was so beautiful and mysterious. This crystal clear light was turning around slowly like a snail, and kept disappearing and reappearing in a flash. After this repeated itself many times, the light changed into dazzlingly full colors and started turning around like a whirlwind. At the same time, magnificent fireworks were erupting on one side, and a brilliant rainbow was shining on the other. All of heaven and earth were filled with gorgeous light. On one side, light emerged from lovely clouds like a rain shower. Nonetheless, I know that it is impossible to express God properly in any language.
My eyes were so dazzled by this scene, and I was simply lost in the ecstasy. Then, all of a sudden, a loud voice called out, saying, "Lower your head." The voice also said, "Have you now seen God's image? God is not someone you can behold with your head straight as you are trying to do." So I dropped my head, kneeled down, and prostrated myself. Repeating "I am sorry, God, I am sorry," I started to see myself.
In this atmosphere, I experienced for the first time an enchanted and peaceful heart like I had never felt during my earthly life, and I felt confident that in such a state I could overcome any difficulties and resolve any problems. Throughout my entire earthly life, I had never felt or heard of such an enrapturing spirit. This feeling of happiness and confidence was so amazing that it simply defies description. I felt that this glorious light could melt away all my failings, sorrows, shame, hatreds, frustrations, and distrust, as well as all my pain and joy. It may be appropriate to call it a furnace that melts down everything.
Although I want to express the manifold images of God, I honestly feel at this moment that my description is short and unable to convey everything. One thing I could ascertain from this experience, however, was that God who revealed Himself in my experience is embracing us as a beautiful and crystal clear light of tens of millions of volts. I also realized that God comes to us in many different forms according to the different shape we each have.
April 27, 2000
(2) Where God Stays
God, who is omnipresent and omnipotent, cannot be judged by ordinary human thinking. God wants to be always present in our hearts and stay with us in all areas of our life. But God's desire to do so failed to materialize because we have failed to be one with Him. Although God has always come to us with a parental heart, we have failed to serve Him, and although He has always stayed beside us, protecting and loving us, we have failed to sense and realize it. Although God has been embracing, caressing, and caring for US from time immemorial, we have been living on without being able to experience Him. This is the root of God's sorrow and of all human tragedy.
While living on earth, I experienced God's love to some extent, and yet this was based on my physical senses, and thus utterly incomparable with the love of God I have experienced here in the spiritual world.
One day, while praying to God, Augustine, a human being, was wishing, "If only I could always be with God," when God's voice sounded with gentle light, saying "Listen, Augustine. I have always been with you and will always be with you, too. You, however, are looking for Me, although you are always beside Me. This is because you and I have not always been one."
I asked Him, "How can I be one with You?" but without answering, God embraced me for a while with a charming light and went away somewhere. I prayed and waited for a considerable time in order to attain God's answer. One day, the brilliant light appeared again in a flash, and God said, "You are still you. How much have you tried to become He?" I replied, "God, I have made no small efforts to achieve it, but I can not easily feel what it means to become like You." God then answered, "Augustine, abandon yourself, and empty your heart. Cultivate the field of your heart so that God can dwell in it anytime."
God wants to dwell in the heart of every one of us and live with us, and yet since Augustine's heart of prayer, heart of thinking, and heart of remembering others were all filled with self-centered desire - selfishness - God could not find His house in him. Here in the spiritual world, I have experienced this so much, down to the bone. But this filth is still lurking in the heart of Augustine. We can meet God only after removing all selfish desires from our hearts. I am making continuous efforts for that day. For that day.
April 28, 2000
(3) God's Love
We receive our body from our physical parents and live our lives in their love. Hence, we are always ready to honor the love of our physical parents. This is because we experience our parents' love through our physical senses.
On the other hand, since in general we cannot sense God's love through our physical senses, we live our lives with little concern about God's love. In fact, however, God's love plays a far greater role in our whole life than does the love of our physical parents. Nevertheless, most of us fail to detect God's love.
In my life on earth, although I realized God's love to some extent, I fell short of understanding that God is giving us a love far deeper and wider than we imagine. Even after I shed my body and came here, I failed to realize this, despite experiencing God's love so many times; hence, my repentance over a long period. I cannot describe my heart at that time in words.
I think it is only out of ignorance of God that people serve Him, pray to Him, and make pleas to Him, for God knows in advance what we need and has already prepared what we pray for, just as a mother knows and prepares what her baby needs even before the baby cries for it. After I came here and heard God's voice, many times I felt my shortcomings and wrongs beyond my comprehension and thus made continuous prayers of repentance.
Every time I did this, God called me, "Augustine," and then said nothing further. And when I kneeled and bowed down, He would call "Augustine" a few times and then just leave. When I became speechless and just prostrated myself and shed tears of repentance, God called me and said to me, "Your tears hurt My heart," and then left again. After this, I resolved never to cry before God, in order not to agonize His heart. This is not everything about my experience of God; I have experienced Him in many different dimensions.
One day, in order to introduce God, I zealously explained to someone the image of God I had directly experienced, telling him that he could also meet God directly. After a few days, however; God called me and said, "God cannot directly meet that person. So instead of God, you go and testify to him about God. He still has a distance to cross before meeting God. Just as I love you, so guide him in love. But do not tell him that God cannot meet him directly." Through the long ages, although God has wanted to live together with people, the providence of restoration has been prolonged over and over again because people have continued to fall short of the standard.
My heart aches whenever I think about this. I can confidently introduce God to anyone, and will continuously strive to help all people to establish their own heartistic standard whereby they can meet God directly. I will earnestly pray to quicken the day when all humanity, as well as I, can cultivate the fields of the heart and correctly establish our attitude of faith.
4. People St. Augustine Has Met in the Spiritual World
In my life on earth, ever since I came to know God, my life was focused in one direction. However, the God I had known on earth and the God I have met here in the spiritual world are fundamentally different; the God of my earthly experience was only a tiny part of the whole picture. I have seen that the experiences of many other saints and believers here with respect to God are almost the same as mine. Now I would like to provide an account of their experience, without mentioning names.
(1) Protestant Ministers
1. God's Equal Love
When I settled down in the spiritual world, it was in a realm where I could converse with God. There, I studied continuously about God. In the course of this study, I wanted to collect stories of other people's experiences of God, and so I met a few Christian ministers.
One of them had served Christ and devoted himself solely to the ministry all through his life on earth. He said that he met God on earth, after which he experienced God's love and the Holy Spirit, and healed his own illness. He said, however, that there on earth he had had only a very vague idea about God's real existence, thinking that God exists somewhere but can never be found in finite space. He asserted, however, that he clearly saw God's existence after coming here and that most people can cure their own illnesses through the Holy Spirit. He then told me real examples of human sicknesses cured by the Holy Spirit of God. However, he continued, there are many cases of human sicknesses not cured by the Holy Spirit of God, and he thought in many different ways about the reasons for this. He explained that God's main business is not curing our diseases but embracing all of us with equal love.
Conveying his realization that God equally loves both those who are cured and those who are not cured, he explained that the former people were cured because they had more things to do on earth than in the spiritual world, and the latter people were not cured because they had more important business in the spiritual world than on earth.
According to him, although the latter people might deplore their own deaths, thinking only about their earthly life, both groups of people are equally important when seen from the standpoint of God's eternal providence. Thus, the minister's conclusion was that God's love for us couldn't be measured, judged, or expressed through ordinary standards or means.
May 1, 2000
2. God's Everlasting Love
God transcends time and space, and can choose whether to appear to us or not. This means that although God's love for us is infinite and eternal, there can be circumstances in which God cannot be present. How sad this is!
Here, I would like to introduce another Christian minister's experience of God. He lived a long life of dissipation before becoming a minister on earth. Until his youth, he had no interest in God's existence or in matters of faith, and had no idea about the meaning of life. After he passed his youth, however, he was captured by the thought that God might really exist, and this was because he saw a youth who had been much more spoiled than he embrace a new and sincere life through God's love.
He clearly witnessed that this previously wicked youth had changed his life after meeting God and was now living sincerely for the sake of God, which deeply moved him. So he asked the youth, 'What is life for the sake of God, and how did you meet God?" and his answer was very simple: "I realized God's love, but I cannot show or explain to you the God whom I have met. I am living in full confidence of God's love." The minister however, confessed that even after witnessing the proof of this youth's life, he still lived carelessly for a long time without understanding faith in God or the meaning of life, and then told me the following story of how he experienced God's love.
One morning, he woke up to dazzling sunlight, and a ray of the sun was shining on him. In this light, he could hear something like God's voice, saying, "Your eyes may be dazzled, but open your eyes and see what that light is." When he opened his eyes, there was no sunlight to be seen, and he could see only the light of Jesus' cross shining from outside the window. He followed the light of the cross to a place, where he found a pitiful old man left alone in a shabby house.
After this, the light of the cross disappeared, and as he recovered his senses, he realized that the old man was none other than his father, whom he dearly loved. Although his father was living alone so nearby, he had been living a dissipated life without caring about his father. He felt tremendous regret. As he looked at the cross that had disappeared, tears of repentance and flames of the Holy Spirit arose from the depths of his heart. Repenting for having lived shamefully while neglecting his suffering father, he called out for the Lord at the top of his voice and prayed God to open the way in which he could proceed. At this moment, he heard God's voice saying, "God's love is eternal. The beginning is love, and so is the end. So you love your brothers and sisters and your neighbors."
After this time, his view of life completely changed. Since there was no one around him to take care of him or help him, however, he relied entirely on prayer. He determined to love his own father first, who was so frail that he could not even stand up without someone's help.
Nevertheless, his father said to him, "You leave my side and love and save humankind." At this time, the love of his father and of God made him feel a pain that seemed strong enough to melt heaven and earth. He then went to a friend of his and begged for help, and the friend led him to the church and had him listen to God's word. Thereafter, he made a determination to walk the path of a minister for the sake of God and the development of the church. and devoted himself to loving humanity with God's word. Although God is love from beginning to end, we have almost no sense of His infinite love, and this is why God's love and human life are separated. Whether on earth or in the spiritual world, God's love is unfathomable, infinite, and eternal, and although in many cases God's love may not clearly appear to us, He is still loving us continuously. It is only that we human beings have a wrong idea about His love.
God waited for him and came to him even when he was living a wayward life, and here in the spiritual world, God loved him without asking him about his past sins. God's love is the foundation of eternal happiness, and the only problem is that we human beings are too dull to realize this. This was his conclusion.
May 3, 2000
3. God Is The Parent of All People
Since we human beings are born through our mother, we can easily understand our mother. Most people carry an image of their parents, which they have in common through heavenly decree. Regardless of who our parents are, we as human beings cannot escape from the problems of life, death, suffering, and joy, or the ups and downs in our life on earth. Hence, beyond our physical parents, this forces us to think about the question of the existence of God, who is the parent of all humankind. A question that we as human beings cannot but raise at least once in our earthly life is the question of God's existence.
I visited another minister to hear his experience of God. Without exception, he also had seriously agonized over such common human problems as were mentioned earlier. His parents died when he was small, and thus he grew up poor in an orphanage without being able to feel parental love. After a while, however, he was adopted by a rich family and lived a happy life with his rich parents. But he anguished over the unsolved problems of his physical parents, spiritual parents, and God's existence, and as a result he undertook theological studies. He led an uncommon life of faith and had an experience similar to that of Buddha, through which he met God.
He related that when God called him, He always said, "My son! I am your Father" instead of calling his name. The moment God called him "My son," he experienced a special comfort that he had never felt from anyone; for him, that soothing voice was warmer, happier, and more peaceful than any parents in the world could make one feel, he remembered. When he asked God, "How is it that You are my Father?" God answered, "I, God of all, am the Creator of all people and the Father of all people. This is why I am your Father, and you are My son."
Having felt the warmth and happiness of God the Father on earth, he wanted to see the real being of God the Father in the spiritual world, and made endless prayers and spiritual conditions for that purpose. He came to realize clearly, however that God cannot appear with a body, and if He could, He would not be able to appear as the Father of all people. He said that although he had studied theology for a long time on earth, he could not really feel that God was his parent. He also said that although on earth he could not believe it with certainty, his experience in the spiritual world helped him understood very clearly that God is his eternal parent. He gave an honest confession saying, My hope has come true. I am infinitely happy and blessed.
May 8, 2000
(2) Catholic Priests and Nuns
1. Life and Confession of a Priest
The Catholic worship service is much more solemn and elaborate than the Protestant service. Hence, the Catholic Church offers many opportunities to purify and evangelize human hearts through service ceremonies and sacred events. I would like to introduce a divine experience of a pure-hearted priest who lived his whole life unmarried in such an environment purely for the sake of the Lord. He said that he had chosen the religious road under heavy religious persecution and contempt from his family. He suffered in heart from his childhood and decided upon the way of religion in an urgent and acute spiritual situation. Thereafter he had no more interest in secular affairs and single-mindedly followed the spiritual path. He was all alone not only during his days as a novitiate, but also all throughout his holy mission. He was not without family members, and yet none of them cared for him or visited him. His parents and siblings had complicated relationships. His holy mission meant his living together and sharing joy and sorrow only with the Lord.
During his clerical mission, he had a radically unexpected experience. Spiritual discipline requires that you limit all your secular connections. One day, however, when he was deep in sleep, a stunning beauty came to him thoroughly naked and asked to sleep with him. Shocked, he asked her, "What is going on? Who are you?" In fact, she was a virgin who was serving a holy mission together with him in the convent attached to the same church.
What must have happened when such a thing occurred to a young man and woman?
There, they sinned before God, and after this they went their own ways. He tried to give up the path of the clergy. He struggled vehemently over the question of God's purpose in creating human beings and how much human beings must discipline themselves spiritually. His mind and body became covered with scars, and his frustration, despair, and feelings of nothingness drove him to the verge of death. But it was in this misery that he experienced God's love. Feeling completely ruined, he was alone in a dark room, when suddenly a bright light emerged and embraced his mind and body. Comfortably wrapped in this blanket of peace and happiness, he could not tell whether it was real or a dream. From that light, a kind voice came, which said, "Jehovah God loves you. Hence, just as Jehovah God loves you, so should you love all humanity. I gave Eve to Adam as his spouse because it was not good to behold him alone. You think that you are all by yourself, but you are not alone. Jehovah God will always be with you and love you." He spiritually renewed himself in that dreamlike happiness and cultivated his mind and body, thereby becoming a new person; now, he experienced that God's love could completely wash away his pain and beyond that the suffering and wounds of all humankind. Thereafter, always remembering God's compassionate voice, he devoted himself to loving humanity as a clergyman. During his remaining life he sewed the holy mission, strictly following the regulations of the monastery, and when he departed the earth and came here to the spiritual world, he experienced God's eternal and boundless love and the destined relationship between God and human beings. He also realized that celibacy is not God's original will. In other words, he came to discern with certainty that God always rejoices to behold people getting together as couples and that even God needs to be with people if He is to be happy. God created Eve as Adam's partner, and wished that they would multiply and fill the universe.
Hence, he wondered why, then, God had given directions for celibacy. He asked God that question by making many spiritual conditions, and finally discovered God's will. He firmly realized that, while God needed a spiritual course of celibate priests and nuns before the providence was fully accomplished, His original purpose in creating humans was that Adam and Eve become a couple and multiply children, thereby establishing an ideal family, society, country, and world. So he sincerely wished that many spiritual seekers and the papacy truly discerned God's original purpose. He said emphatically, "The way of the spiritual seeker is by no means easy; however, such tribulations in our life are not God's original will." Such was this priest's conclusion.
Immediately before the reporter received this message, she had offered a prayer, whereupon a vision of a man and a woman embracing each other in the bedroom appeared to her suddenly. So she started the reporting while wondering what this vision meant.
May 9, 2000
2. The Fallacy of Denominational Division (Catholicism)
Protestants and Catholics all started out centered on God's love and sewing God as the ultimate object of their faith. Thus, it is based on a serious fallacy that Protestants and Catholics have split up, each of them having further divided into many denominations and factions. Their divisions are based on differences in how they see faith, life, and the universe in light of the words of Jesus. However, do they not all serve the one and only God, and do their fundamental views not affirm, rather than deny, the existence of God?
From God's point of view, our talk of Catholicism, Eastern Orthodoxy, Protestantism, Presbyterianism, Baptism, etc. is simply silly. This division between religious denominations is outrageous to God, as He sees all humanity identically as His children. Here, I would like to introduce the opinion of another priest. He researched the reality of sectarian division, and raised many theological questions on many levels about this problem.
Besides Protestantism and Catholicism, there are myriads of other religions. Are the Gods they serve different from one another, or do they all represent one and the same God? Why do human beings seek God and yearn for and wonder about the other world? What is the nature of God and the original human nature, and how do these natures differ? He anguished over these issues for long time.
Every country has an array of different religions, and yet they all ultimately pursue goodness and the formation of one human community. This suggests that religion is essential and indispensable for human life, and we can never make light of the impact it has on our life. Then, where does religious desire come from, and why is it that we never manage to leave our religiosity behind? Where does human religiosity come from? Why do we yearn for and seek to lean on God? If people do not rely on absolute God, they still try to rely on some being: bowing down, for instance, before the sea, a river, or a tree and try to lay the burdens of their lives at the foot of some god. Where does this kind of nature come from?
Notwithstanding our constant desire to be perfect, why is it that we cannot but live as an imperfect creature? Why is it that we cannot determine the matters concerning our life and death? And why do most people live each day in anxiety and insecurity about an uncertain tomorrow?
These were the questions that troubled this priest. According to him, he took the path of religion because he felt that he could not live normally and have a family while anguishing over these questions. Even throughout his lifelong religious life, however, he still could not find a fundamental solution to the problems of human reality. "How can we say that God exists, when we cannot even see Him or talk to Him comfortably?" he asked. Although he had many doubts about life during his religious pursuit, he could not abandon religion. This was his life on earth.
Although he concluded his earthly life through religion and came to the spiritual world, his doubts still lingered. What he has realized clearly here, however, is that in the spiritual world, the different religions may serve their own founder, but the Gods they used to serve on earth are nowhere to be seen - their only object of faith is the one God.
One day, someone was giving a lecture to a large crowd. The lecturer spoke passionately, saying, "There is no God for us, but only we ourselves." All of a sudden, however, the whole area turned dark, and thunder and lightning struck, together with a whirlwind. After a while, the darkness left, and a brilliant light appeared and a thundering voice could be heard, which said, "I, Jehovah, am the Creator of all humankind. With no beginning or end, there is only one Jehovah." All the people there were trembling, and the impassioned lecturer had already disappeared.
What he realized through this experience was that, although there are many different religions and denominations, their only differences are in their method of serving God, and there is for all of us only one God, Jehovah, the God of all people. There, finally, he could completely put behind him the doubts he had had all his life and start concentrating only on sewing God. He said that he wanted to confidently convey to all the religious seekers wondering and agonizing like him that there is only one ultimate object of our faith. He claimed that the denominational divisions on earth have sprung from wrong human thinking, and that if all humanity served the one God only, sectarian schisms would not occur. In conclusion, he stressed that God can rest easy only when the multifarious religions become unified, and that the peace of humankind will be realized only when we serve no one but the one God.
May 11, 2000
3. Confession of a Nun
Each of us is a vessel to be prepared and offered to God during our lives. We are born with a portion, whether it is large or small, which we must offer God according to our unique characteristics. The form given to each individual at birth is an object of God's joy, for already at the time of our birth, we are given our portion to offer to God, and this is the form God created. Now, I would like to introduce the life of a nun who walked a spiritual path all throughout her life and served God with all her mind and body.
She was born to Catholic parents. Her father firmly pledged to the Holy Mother that his daughter would follow the spiritual path all her life from the moment of her birth. The rest of her family members, however, vehemently opposed her taking the spiritual path. Hence, it was amidst a serious family struggle that she started her life as a nun, and after she became a nun her parents and relatives together opposed her being a nun. They often visited her convent and attempted to persuade her to give up her spiritual pursuit and return to a normal life. Hence, her spiritual path was very turbulent.
After a long struggle in heart, she finally decided to leave the convent and return to her family. On that very day, however, the Holy Mother appeared to her and said to her with tears, "Sister! Have you forgotten the promise you made with me? When I made this promise with you, I asked God to take care of you for your whole life. No matter how hard the path may be, it must be walked by someone." Hence, she told all her family members and relatives about the appearance of the Holy Mother and pleaded with them, saying. This is the will of God. so please do not try to stop me from going this way." She then continued her serious religious life.
Although her family and relatives were deeply pained to see her take the rugged path of serving God, they promised no longer to block her way. Unlike other people, she had a special grace and mission given directly by God. Whenever she prayed to God, His Holy Spirit and light, and the Holy Mother's light of grace came to her, and God and the Holy Mother stressed the importance of her mission.
Before many fellow believers, she started doing various miracles and signs through healing by the grace of the new word. Steeped in Catholic doctrine, however, those believers stubbornly refused to accept the grace of the new word and her work of healing, thereby causing her many struggles. The Holy Mother wanted her to personally cure the pain of her fellow believers, and yet Catholic law did not accept the work of the Holy Spirit through her. This forced her to move to another convent, and her work of the new word and healing was pushed into the background. She then embarked on a very arduous life of witnessing. In her old age, she left the convent and wondered around, spreading the work of healing and the Holy Mother's new word of truth, until she concluded her earthly life and came here to the spiritual world.
Here, while living in deep love of God and the Holy Mother, she seriously repented for not having been able to convey the new truth of God correctly to many fellow believers. She surely experienced and ascertained that the love of God and the Holy Mother is truly great and can transcend anything in heaven and earth. In the life of faith, the law exists for completing our love and not for binding us, and the restrictions of the law are not the original will of God. Now all religious seekers must stop differentiating themselves as a Catholic, Protestant, or member of some other denomination, embrace one another, and become one by respecting the uniqueness of different teachings, thereby returning to the original faith transcending religious faction. Acknowledging that each religion shares the common root of goodness, they should uphold one truth centering on God as the only standard of good and evil. We should fundamentally change our attitude of faith, realizing that all people are brothers and sisters in God's love. We have God as the only object of our faith, and we should think deeply about how we can serve and attend God when we come to live in the eternal world. This is what she wanted to convey clearly.
Here, she always lives humbly in accordance with the directions of the Holy Mother and sometimes serves Jesus. She always tries not to deviate from her position as a nun.
To me, her attitude is so beautiful; what is more important, however is that she was bold enough to jump into the lives of her fellow believers. I earnestly hope that through her upright attitude of faith, many Protestants and Catholics can strengthen the basic spirit of faith.
May 15, 2000
4. The World Where the Mind and Body Become One
In our life on earth, the problem of clothes, food, and shelter is important, and yet it is just for the growth of our body. You should deeply ponder what you can do for the sake of the maturation of your eternal spirit self. Actually, is not our earthly life but a grandiose dream of spring? We absolutely cannot ignore the matters of our spirit self, just because we cannot see it. Here, I would like to introduce the life of a nun who seriously concerned herself with and anguished over the maturation of her spirit self all through her life of faith.
In her life, she could not be freed from agony over the problem of the physical self and the spirit self, because she realized that following bodily demands troubled the mind, whereas going with the mind distressed the body. Unable to resolve this problem, she took the path of religious pursuit. However, even through her religious life, she could not find the answer, which made her struggle and wonder whether she should go back to the world.
She could not understand why God created human beings in such a wretched shape. One day, however she felt the warmth of God during her prayer and from heaven heard a solemn voice saying, "I am Jehovah, who is your Parent and at the same time the Parent of all humankind. Now you are living in a very narrow and momentary world, but in your future there is a world where you can live in happiness and abundance. But you do not come to this world with your body." During this time the nun was trembling.
Thereafter she stopped worrying about physical things, and with the understanding that earthly life is for maturing the spirit self, she started on a religious life in order to prepare her inner being to live in the eternal world. Although she always had to struggle over her failure to unite her mind and body, she took God's instruction to heart and devotedly carried out her spiritual self cultivation. No matter how much she tried on earth, however, she could not easily bring together her mind and body or develop her spirituality to maturity.
According to her, however, when she came here to the spiritual world, she experienced God's love, in which she could resolve the problems that had troubled her on earth. She asserts that since God's love is omnipresent and omnipotent, it can solve all human problems. For instance, she has seen that wherever God goes, all the trees and grasses around Him make all kinds of efforts to bring Him joy according to their unique characteristics and forms, and all the people around Him looked warm, humble, peaceful, and happy, although there was no one to give them commands or to intervene in their life. All their attitudes were rooted in God's love, and like a magnificent painting, their minds and bodies were completely united. She understood that the driving force for the unity of our mind and body is God's eternal love alone, which He gave us at the time of our creation.
The disunity of our minds and bodies is a distortion of the original form of the human being. Therefore, she realized that a life of faith and spiritual cultivation are absolutely necessary for us to regain the original image. What she has discovered while observing many things here is that human beings deviated from the original image during the process of their growth.
She has clearly understood that God's infinite love is the power to overcome every hurdle and resolve every problem. We should all fully prepare for the next life in order to live there eternally in God's bosom of love. We must make efforts to nurture our inner being while we have our bodies. This was the conclusion of the nun.
May 17, 2000
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